Found out that I was going to be a father again after 18 years. Pretty excited. After a couple of weeks of hell at work with the kids I work with I'm finding that I'm much, much more grateful for the gift of my own kids. Have also realized that even if the kid I've worked with has had a rough trot in life it is no excuse for 99% of the things they do. It is no excuse for trying to destroy someone's career because they won't take any of their abuse. It is no excuse for trying to smash someones skull with a brick or destroy a house that is being paid for by taxpayers. The government departments need to see these kids and their abuse first hand. See what us carers, police and the community has to deal with.

Essence of Love

Being a parent is probably the closest way we can experience the way God loves. To love someone so purely, so totally, so unconditionally. To experience the love of all the real fathers throughout history as you hold your child for the first time. There is a connection in a spititual way with these men. And there is a spitiual connection with your child that is as close to God as we can get. It is through our children that we experience His love and it is loving our children with everything we are and hope to be that we are closest to Him.

Real Manhood

I learnt when I first held my son 17 years ago what the true essence of manhood was. It is gentleness, compassion. The truly great men in history, the ones who changed the world were like this. Jesus,Ghandi, Martin Luther King, Jr., were all men of peace yet had a profound effect on history. Even the great warriors realized that true strength lies in love. Yet the strength to defeat enemies was still there, if not more powerful as they fought to help others, protect and serve, rather than to force their power onto others.

First Time Jitters

First time and I don't know what I'm doing. I have a lot on in my mind and seem to be entering a new stage in my life where I'm doing things I have previously said I would never do. This being one of them. The question I ask myself is why do I find myself doing this? Rambling on into the internet. This should be interesting.